how it ends

so i wrote another song. i'm lame, i know.

its tentatively called "how it ends"

I can't let go of what I want
chews me up, spits me out.
Makes me feel so small,
I'm afraid I'm going to fall
I sometimes ask God, why not me?
Want to feel loved, want to feel free
they tell me she's out there,
I laugh and ask, where?

So why can't I let go?
Why can't I forget?
Why do I have to know
how it ends?

No talent, no light,
is my future really that bright?
Pressure and expectations,
but I don't really know what I am facing.
Bottled up, gotta let it all out
wearing me down, giving me hell.
I know what I am, I know what I'm not
I'll look back on now, and say i forgot.

So why can't I let go?
Why can't I forget?
Why do I have to know
how it ends?

If I let go
If I escape
I can be free
I can betray
All of the demons
deep down inside
and know what love is
and not have to hide

So help me let go
help me forget
help me to find out
how it all ends...

Please help me let go...
Please help me forget
I just have to find out
how it ends.